This is all because at the moment when you were having a great and sweet time with ur loved one sumone juz came in and try to destroy it..It was so scary when I cant slp the whole nite..I will neva forget how I feel on tht nite.. It had taught me to be more catious of ppl as there is also some ppl out there who like to snatch from others..Donnoe izzit they have not been loved b4..It juz make me feel irritated when I noe abt her existence. Its juz so annoying to hear her name or even sees it.. I think tht no one in the world will know who I feel unless they had gone through it..
Now tht everything is over. some worries is still there but became betta.. However still dislike her as B4 as it will never be gone..Wat had happened had already happened..What I care more is to be Happy Everyday and been LOVED! Ppl like her will not destroy me so easily and will GET out of my life…There is still a long way to go. All I care now is how to walk the way together with my dear dear smoothly!
Not that I don like my dear dear to go outings with his frens..I can swear tht if its any others I will not say a word or give any faces..Its juz tht donnoe y when I heard abt tht someone is also goin I feel so irritated and uncomfortable..So sorry but cant help I really feel so. Its not tht I don trust my dear but juz feel tht way..Haiz donnoe Y/??? I guess no one can explains tis too..Its juz so super natural..
Love, @ 11:34 PM
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Great weekend!
Yesterday was fun..After sch sis n fren plus my dear dear drove tp skool to pick me... hehe Then went to the ikea to buy sum things for my hos coz doing [packings now..After tht went to MT Faber..It was nice up there the enviroment and everything was great took loads of pics will up load later! Haha we had a great time then went Geylang for late dinner..Went to have the tou jiang you tiao.Was nice though i did not eat much..Was rather tired after a long day..Went home slept like a Piggy!
today went to east coast beach with the same grp of ppl for panic was fun as we plyed sum games..Then went Ps to check my phone stuff..Wanted to buy a new phone but not cheap wo..Overall muz may $445..Gonna be broken MAN!! Had a wonderful with my dear..Enjoyed myself!
Love, @ 11:05 PM
.Friday, September 29, 2006 ♥
Finally!!!
Hahaha Finally, its the WEEKENDS le!!! Cant wait for it to cum..Hehe 2dae's sch was alrite..As usual stressed frm 10 to 4...haha Then after tht happy hour! Not sure where i am goin..But sis cumming pick me..Her fren got a car So summing sch pick me!(dear dear oso cumming along) Nothing much juz love weekend.. Tink tml will be going dear dear there he wan ply floorball with me haha ( hope i still noe how to ply) Then not much plans yet but think will be cooking spagetti for lunch!
Love, @ 4:29 PM
.Thursday, September 28, 2006 ♥
sian1/2
Haiz yesterday suppose to be having a great nite but all spoil becoz of sum stupid arguements...Haiz..Sux man!
Haiz Actually i don mind him going sentosa de is becoz of sumting which make me feel different. Donnoe y but juz simply hate it..Y cant it juz get the hell out of my life y/??? y keep pestering me and destroy my happiness???Will it feel happier this way??Haiz really hate myself for being so easily distrated..I DON WAN ANYTING LIKE THT TO CONTROL ME. The more it wan to distory the strong i will be to defeat it..Really sick of tht sumting le...PLZ STOP BORDERING ME!!! I wan to have a great life and it wil without it.. I guess it is pretty obivious how much trouble had it create and how much i hate it...
Anyway today's skool was sian la the usual things..Soo looking for to weekends now..haiz..
**(((( ppl around hear tis now don try to change my happiness and get out of my life))))
**if understood u will know!
Love, @ 2:04 PM
.Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ♥
rain
Juz post to hope thursday will RAIN!! haha Coz there is is special reasons sbt it...hahaha LOVE the Rain!!
RAIN RAIN COME A AGAIN COME AGAIN ONE THURSDAY!!!
Love, @ 2:27 PM
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rain
Juz post to hope thursday will RAIN!! haha Coz there is is special reasons sbt it...hahaha LOVE the Rain!!
Love, @ 2:27 PM
.Tuesday, September 26, 2006 ♥
sushi queen !!!
Juz now end skool went down to orchard to meet my dear and cousin melvin..Went there for half an hour only then they want to go hougang to have dinner..haha
So in the end we went hougang plaza' suki sushi for dinner..It was buffet i eat till want die le..Hahah Then we still try loads things which we neva eat b4...
Was a great nite..enjoyed myself and had a great time with them...Planned to have more meetings!!!
Anyway tml will be a sian day for me coz is cognitive..Heard from others is sux...Hope it will be fine..My dear dear tml got floorball so will be meeting him at nite!
Love, @ 10:12 PM
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sushi queen !!!
Juz now end skool went down to orchard to meet my dear and cousin melvin..Went there for half an hour only then they want to go hougang to have dinner..haha
So in the end we went hougang plaza' suki sushi for dinner..It was buffet i eat till want die le..Hahah Then we still try loads things which we neva eat b4...
Was a great nite..enjoyed myself and had a great time with them...Planned to have more meetings!!!
Anyway tml will be a sian day for me coz is cognitive..Heard from others is sux...Hope it will be fine..My dear dear tml got floorball so will be meeting him at nite!
Love, @ 10:12 PM
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another day of skool!
Its another day of skool...Feel so sian like dragging myself to skool all day!! It seems so not interesting going to skool coz ppl around are so different..
Every group i am in for the pass few days will juz kill me man! Some are like so super kan chiong which really stresses me man..
Much more higher expectation for me is need...Argh!!!! Haiz have no choice but to take it..Need to go do the laast part of ppt le.Sian..Cant wait for the lesson to end...((time plz pass faster!!))
Love, @ 1:59 PM
.Sunday, September 24, 2006 ♥
JB!!!
Today was a great day!! When JB with my dear dear and his family... Went there to shop and eat!! Bought lots of top which is nice and cheap!!Got a pair of heels too..Hahaha..All was good buy..We had a very full lunch at the hong kong cafe at city square..Then went another place to have seafood dinner...Haha sounds fat rite?? Anyway was really a great day though i did not really buy what i wanted..But still i enjoyed my day coz its my FIRST overseas trip with my dear!!!
Tml not goin sch coz rather tired and need to accompany my mom to tan toh seng for a check up...Need to clm down and prepare for sch on tues..sadded..hahah
Love, @ 10:41 PM
.Saturday, September 23, 2006 ♥
Suckx
These few days to me is juz so damn bad..Fristly is yesterday which is the second dayof sch le..So stressed!!!! Ppl there are juz so competitive manz..Haiz wat a klass..But lucky ended the day well coz went to the airport..LOVE airport so much donnoe y..Hahaha
2dae suppose to be alrite but it ended sux..Juz realised tht his temper is really getting from bad to worst..Trying so much to take it coz don wan argue over tis knda things but it had seems to become taking for granted.. The worst thing is he is spending too much time on his games le...Not tht i don't allow but its really too much..Now tht i have to go sch which also means lesser time together..But because of games we argued so much! Wat is tis rite?? Really sick of the blames of me making him die...All these still nvm he is always rushing when oit is at nite so tht he can be home on time for games..Haiz don care anymore le la..If plying games will make him feel happy then so be it la..Juz don wan argue overall these le..Don wan make him feel tht he has no freedom in doin wat he like..
Still not sure abt tml malaysia trip tml...Hope it will still be on and will be fine.
Love, @ 10:04 PM
.Thursday, September 21, 2006 ♥
There is more but too much to put le..ahhahaha
Love, @ 2:13 PM
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new semester!
2dae is the first day of skool! Not really very excited bt it and look forward to it..Coz it’s a bunch of new ppl again which means have to know new ppl which I hate to..Why cant stick to the old one? Its like get close together then separate again so dumb la..Haha anyway life is like tht no choice but to except everything which is planned.. New klass was still alrite (I guess) Hoping it to turn out good..lolx
Anyway had a great day yesterday though it’s the last day of holiday le..sobx sobx..Went shopping wit sis in the early afternoon at bugis then met my dear dear and his 2nd sis then we ktv..Yeahz man..It was fun..the three of us only..haha..May be singing sum sad songs but feel ok coz wont feel tht way anymore.lol..The unforgettable part is the songs me and my dear sung esp (pretty boy) by m2m..Everyting was great la..enjoyed my last day like hell..haha then went plaza singapura to have dinner with his mother..
Sad tht holidays ended but I tell myself to tahan tis 11 weeks then will be very fast after tht…It will be 4 weeks of holiday then 5 weeks of school then 9 weeks of holiday..wahahahah So I muz JIA YOU!!!
Love, @ 2:11 PM
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haha this supposed to be posted yesterday but was not able..hehe
Had a great day yesterday. It was fun, tiring but enjoying! Went out with my dear dear swee yesterday to catch a movie and also watch fireworks!
Were at plaza singapura at first for the movie then after the movie we are suppose to be at shenton way for the fireworks..But becoz its still early so we decided to walk there...Wahz thts very far..We walked past fort canning , citiy hall, the esplanade, parliment hos then finally shenton way..On the way we took loads of pictures..Haha it was really fun..I still saw two very cute squrrial at for canning park..The part was rather nice..
After so many hours of walking and waiting..We stop at the bridge right infront of fullerton which is also the diret view of it..At 10 pm...The firewoks appeared! It was too nice until i donnoe how to descire!!
It was really a wonderful day for both of us..It is juz so unforgetable..Will be posting the pictures ltr..HEHE
Anyway today will be my last day of holiday...So wan make full use of it therefore cannt stay at home!haha..Already know which klass i go (w16h) same buliding same level..ahaha and there was at least someone i know there..Lucky me..Hope everything will be fine and smooth!
Love, @ 10:44 AM
.Monday, September 18, 2006 ♥
great
Hahaha..Hd a great day today...
Morning woke up rather early coz wan help my mum buy breakfast..LolX..so siao sun hor..ahahhaha Then meet my dear dear at boonkeng coz went to his uncle hos..Stayed there for almost half a day chit chatting and plying with the kids..Still teach them study lo..HAHha Feel happy coz i enjoyed though its not interesting..LOL
Then went Kovan for dinner..Was damn full man coz ate fish steamboat, chilli crab and more..These few days not eating alot Donnoe y lei..eat abt then full liao..Haha nvm la as long as not too skinny can le..
Goin out with my boi tml to catch a movie..Hope we will have a great time too..Juz wan to enjoy my last 2 percious day of holiday..lolx
Kkz will stop here wan go iron my clothes and watch Tv le..Nowadays my dear so into maple then muz play from 10 to 2..So no choice muz WAIT lo..lolX
***treasure ur love ones always or you will regret if you lose them***
Love, @ 10:25 PM
.Sunday, September 17, 2006 ♥
Hhaha juz realise tht i have not blog for a long time le..HEHE
Anyway i had a great weekend with my Dear dear Swee..HAHA Though we did go really go anywhere special or do anything special but we had enjoyed ourselves..Thts what i REALLY wants..I want to be happy everyday! Haha Hope things will go as smooth as can be and no OBSTRUCTION!
Looking forward to next weekend coz sat celebrating our 500 days and sun going JB wit my dear dear swee family!yEahz! Really looking forward to it coz my mum finally allow me to go..haha As for our 500 dyas together..I will prepare him 5 presents..only got one done le so still prepare the other 4..HAHAH (((hmmmm..wat shld i do??))))
Anyway tml goin to watch korean dramma at home..Nowadays so into korean dramma..wahaha too free le..Then meeting my dear tml..(hope can la coz always got last minute thing pop out..(sianz) hahah
**** Be Happy Everyday****
Love, @ 11:00 PM
.Friday, September 15, 2006 ♥
too little too late
Haiz so many things had happened.. I donnoe wat i am i thinking...Thinking too much?? I myself oso donnoe..Does it really matters so much?? I oso not sure.. I am trying so hard to stay the same but no chances were given..After every arguements it will be me again hu is in wrong..WHY??
I oso donnoe la..Its like we love each other so much..And he really do. Then i keep doing things to spoil it..Why?? I am really very sorry for tht.. I feel tht i really have to think in postive way instead of always negative..I am really sorry..
Am i too little too late to say all these?? I hope not..
Love, @ 9:32 AM
.Tuesday, September 12, 2006 ♥
yeah
Today my dear neva go sch..hehe..He say he was tired..Anyway he had finish his exams so go or don go no diff..But still have too coz of attendence!
Donnoe whether goin out aNOT..bUT HOPE SO COZ RATHER BORING AT HOME..
kk will stop here wan get my breakfast le dying of hunger soon..hahah
Love, @ 9:59 AM
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Finally
Hmm..where should i start??
Ok everyting got worst...We argued even more and Got lots of unwanted bad feelings keep cumming towards me..At tht moment i was thinking y muz god treat me so bad?? How can he punish me by making me suffering in all this pain?? But nw to think of it , is actually making me attention lessons to make me realise wat is relistic.. It make me realise tht wat is mine will forever be mine whereas wat is not mine will neva be mine..
After much thinking i sent a msg to solve the problem..Finally..Everything is solved! Hope this will continue forever as it is very painful for me..Those lessons are not easy to come over..
Deep in my heart i still hope tht those unwanted ppl in our life will not enter and destroy our life..They are truely UNWANTED..I feel tht i need not entertain tis kinda ppl!
Love, @ 9:52 AM
.Saturday, September 09, 2006 ♥
what i HATE
Juz post to tell everyone i hate somebody and tht some retard name!
I seriously hate tht someone a lot..i think she is the only person i hate in this world..Can you believe such a nice person like me who never hate anyone b4 cana person so damn much?? Tis shows tht tht person had done so much bloddy retarded things to make me hate her..
I dont hate ppl for no reasons..Though tht matter had passed so long ago but it juz still stays in me esp when i heard abt tht somebody..She is juz sux..Never in my life i met a person like her..OMG rite?
Anyway will not call my boi sam anymore becoz it sound sweet as i started it but now someone is calling him tht juz simply make me feeling like puking and will not call him tht..
Tink its rather obivious how much i hate tht particular PERSON..
sOO sorry but i really do and dont except this kinda of ppl.
Love, @ 11:45 AM
.Friday, September 08, 2006 ♥
happy!!!
Today is a wonderful day for me..Enjoyed myself alot after i step out of hos..HAha crazy la..hehe..
The old folks home was fun la..Went there teaching them some simple english..Hhaaha they were juz like kids..Made milo for them during their tea time..Can see tht they were rather happy..Enjoed myself loads there..Still want go next weeek..HEHEHE..
Spent the whole day with my dear,,,though we did simple things and eat simple and not expensive food..We still have a great day!!
Looking forward to our 500 days..haha
Not sleepy at all yet..HAHA..hmmm what will be our plan tml>>?
Love, @ 11:08 PM
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one year 4mths!!
Today is the 8 of sept..Which is our one year four months! Not much plans..Maybe juz have a simple dinner..Anyway going old folks home with my dear today..Haha happy coz i love to go tht kind of places and see them..I feel tht they always feel happy when ppl visits them as they are rather lonely..SOBx,,Yup..so will go there in the after with some other frens..
Finally got all my problems cleared! We talked things out yesterday..And everything had changed as he had understand how i feel and how i think.A good news rite?? HAHAHAH
HAPPY..HAPPY..HAPPY ONE YEAR FOUR MONTHS!
Love, @ 9:24 AM
.Thursday, September 07, 2006 ♥
another day
Today went out with my sis in the late afternoon to shop..Not bad..Today manage to buy things home! Bought a skeit, jacket and a top..Coz me a bomb man..Haha muz save le..cant go shopping too much!
Anyway..There was not much improvement between us..Bgin to call each other less, talk lesser...Messages were also leSSEN..The excuse was in school need to concentrate..Haiz donnoe la juz treat it as it is..Time tht i realise tht my life is juz him and him and him..Need to have more time for myself..Donnoe la..maybe i am tinking too much..As usual hope things will change..Or maybe i should change to understand the situation..
BEING LOVE IS THE BEST AND NOT TO LOVE SOMEONE
Love, @ 8:03 PM
.Wednesday, September 06, 2006 ♥
nothing much!
Yesterday was 5 sept le..another day of holiday doin nothing..Haha think i have been slcking too much which is not very good..Afraid later sch reopen very lazy to do anything!
Watch my lovely samsun the whole day and had finished it !! HahA..Then went Kovan with Dear and his family to have dinner..Was rather Blotted so neva eat much..Juz ate a bowl of bean curd..Think ate one proper meal yesterday only..The rest is samll snacks..
That day went out to buy lots of things to pamper my face and hair..I feel that its time to do something to make them look good! haha..In the end bought a wash off mask form the face shop...a toner and a cream for hair..Hope they work well for..HAHA!
Today is the 6 sept..think will be another day doing nothing..Will be staying at home till noon then go over aunt there..Lucky my aunt owns a shop which i can normally spent my holiday at! Haha this will not make me board as i got loads to learn!
Love, @ 10:36 AM
.Monday, September 04, 2006 ♥
wat should i do>?
Haiz donnoe whats happening to us..we seems to get worst each day..Sometimes good sumtimes bad..Really donnoe waht had happened? It seems like everything had changed. Its so different from what it used to be.It will also never be as sweet as it suppose to be..Everything juz turned so dull.Nothing much can be done. Attitude had changed and became worst.Said tht its imporving but it juz does not seems to be..Taking in and giving in has become normal...WHAT IS HAPPENING??? I seems to be more and more irritating ?? I donnoe la..feel like a person having depression.Everyday there is so many things in my mind so many unsolved questions or problems..Izzit all because i am thinking to much or its the the truth which had not been told??
All i can do is to pray for the better had hope everyting will be fine. It will never be the same as before but juz hope for a better us and not always arguing over things which is not about us..
Love, @ 1:45 PM
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Another weekend juz passed like tht a again..As usual did lots of things but donnoe wat..haha.Went to IT show again on sat..I finally decided to buy a samsung camera.Was quite good at least good for normal usage.My boi bought a printer for his mum,Was rather cheap..Anyway we spent our whole afternoon there after tht went out again at nite..Its like getting more and more bored at home...Haiz
Love, @ 1:36 PM
.Saturday, September 02, 2006 ♥
Met up with my two secondary besties sophia and cindy on 30 august..Actually meeting one only then last minute met up with the other one! It was a fun day accompany cindy to choose clothes..haha Then ltr went plaza sing to met my boi..He went there to play games with his frens..
Went to expo for IT show yesterday with boi..Actually not alot of ppl la..The place is rather big got 3 halls! Went there coz wan get a camera and dear want c mp3..For me was rather difficult to find coz Dad don wan spent too much on a camera as he feel this kinda things wont last so get a normal one for normal use will do..Sad Sad..those expensive one were rather nice..Haha anyWAy today going again to see then buy le..
Haiz today's mood not very good la..Don wish to say much too..Its juz sux when things like tht happens..No choice but to tahan as much as i can..Till the day i burst and die.
